What is Expected in my Future.

Seeing as how I'm into my 20s now, the topic of marriage and children is one that just appears frequently in my life now. I always seem to get entangled in a conversation about marriage and procreating, and I always get people who try and convince me that having kids and getting hitched is something that I'll desire when I'm older. For some apparent reason, it's ingrained into us that this is the one goal in life that tops every other goal we have. I kind of wince when people say "oh, when you have kids..."like it's something that's absolutely expected from me...from everyone around me!

Before I continue, I just want to point out something. This is all of my personal opinion about why I, personally, don't want these things in my life. I'm not saying that having kids is wrong. Or that marriage is wrong. It simply, isn't for me.

So why don't I want to get married? Why do I not want any children? 

Firstly the concept of marriage, to me, is quite archaic. I'd love to have a wedding without the marriage. I'd love to celebrate love, but getting married isn't about the ceremony or the celebration - it's a legally binding contract. I know more divorcees than I know married couples, I'll be honest. Sometimes it's sad, other times it's relieving, and sometimes your love changes. I would, however, would not like to take my chances and deal with the heartbreak, the expense, or anything else for that matter.

Most of all, and biggest of all... Yes, I'm 24 and no, that opinion will likely never change with age. Marriage is for some people; marriage isn't for me. Neither is having children of my own.

So, why no children, Rose?

I have a few medical issues that I really don't want to pass down. The big two being hypothyroidism/Hashimoto's disease and although [supposedly] not genetic, I'd rather not have a child of mine learn from myself any traits I portray of Bipolar Disorder (which, actually, is part of my thyroid issues, but still.) So really, it's not that I don't like children - in fact, I do quite like them; but to be fair, I don't want to introduce someone into a world where I know my faults will cause someone a great difficulty as I've had.

So there you have it folks. I won't die sad and lonely as many of you fear, I have a different view and I believe that I would be much happier this way. :)

On the Job.

Many of my friends now by now that I left my most recent job. I won't name the company, but those who know me, know where I have worked and why I had left. Practicing yoga has taught me one of the most important values that I feel that I always knew, but needed to exercise more; getting rid of the toxic things in your life. It had become apparent that I was no longer happy at my job and I admit that I was very sad to go. I loved my regular customers who I had come to know for the last three years and although my coworkers came as quickly as they went, I made lifelong friendships with many of them.

My work had impacted me, inspired me to pursue my own dream, but I honestly felt that I could have left on better terms. Not saying that I made a scene and ran out the door, but I feel that issues within my workplace could have been handled better. Most long-term employees who want to leave their work mostly leave due to issues with their management or immediate supervisors and I can't help but feel that this was the reason as to why I had left.

As I said before, I had learned that I really did not need the poison in my life. Like many people, I dislike being lied to, gossiped about, bullied and manipulated. I had tolerated it for so long, that I made the drastic decision to leave this job without finding another to immediately replace it. And it's sad. It's SO sad.

Life goes on, however. I have nothing but a sense of relief that I don't have to deal with that anymore and embrace this challenge. I'm broke, unemployed, looking for new work but I can say I sleep better.

And if anyone is looking for a very hard-working employee with a stunning smile and personality...